Painless

In the end, no one will ever understand — and honestly, they don’t need to. If you can’t understand yourself, why the hell would anyone else? The answers you’re looking for are yours alone.


People ask questions without wanting the truth. It’s just intellectual sarcasm.

“I miss you. How are you?”

You don’t actually want to know, brother. You don’t fucking care.


Everyone is armed to the teeth, ready to tell you what’s “right,” ready to crucify you. And if you regret something, tears don’t buy forgiveness. They point fingers — “I hope you learn from this.”

I’m halfway through my life; I don’t need to “learn” anything from someone who decides to kick me in the back. I need to strike back and show you that you didn’t win.


But then what? No one wins, no one loses.


I believe what I say because I say what I believe. People want reactions, signs, clues, reasons.

Reasons drown my soul — do you see that?

No. Impossible. So don’t go searching for what you’re not capable of accepting.

It’s all here, for years, for everything, forever.


I don’t post for attention — I post to dissipate. To record and drain the darkness that builds from the inside out. One day, come back and read it. You’ll find what you want to find — or keep pretending right in front of your own eyes.


Any painless method… I’d accept it.

It’s hard to draw in sand. It’s even harder not to disappear


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